Colton graduates from North Cross Preschool

Colton with his friends Cash and Lauchlen.

Paul, Colton and Caleb

My newest preschool graduate!! Go Colton!

Mrs Ford, Colton and Mrs Arnone. They were fabulous with Colton!

Colton receiving his diploma

His entire preschool class

My cute little graduate

Cute little display for their cupcakes

 They had a cute little slide show to play during the ceremony and this is a few of the shots that they had of Colton.

 

This is a cute little song of Colton singing at his ceremony

Colton loved his preschool and his teachers. I have really enjoyed North Cross Preschool. Colton's teachers did tell me that they had just discussed how far his speech has come over the year and if they couldn't understand him, they said he worked really hard to make it so that they could. It's been a great experience for Colton and for Josh and eventually for Audrey too. Colton went to preschool on Tues and Thurs from 9-3. I worried about him going all day but he did great. He loved his preschool days and wished he could go more.  So, I know he's going to do just fine in kindergarten. I just can't believe this school year is over.

The graduation was really nice. I held it together that night. I just didn't think about it. I mowed the lawn earlier that day and certain songs would come on and would make me tear up. I just can't believe he's done with preschool, before I know it he'll be graduating high school. So, I just don't like to think about it cause I don't want to cry. My kids are growing up so fast and I don't think I'm ready for it. Sometimes I miss the "easier" days of little ones all at home, no school, no extra activities, a little more carefree. Don't get me wrong, although I miss that, I am enjoying the freedom that comes as they age. Anyways, I am very proud of Colton. He's a great kid. He's very smart and caring and social. I just know he's going to excel in kindergarten. And it'll be here in a couple of week. He's doing a 2 week kindergarten kickoff in June with his new teacher. So watch out Meadowbrook and Mrs Deason here comes Colton!!!

Colton turns 5!!!!

Colton with his batman cake that I made for him. Super fun and easy cake to make.

 Wowzers! When did my baby Colton grow up so fast! It doesn't seem like long ago that we first moved to MO and he was just 6 weeks old. Missouri is the only home this little man knows. And now he has hit the huge milestone age of 5- that leads him straight to kindergarten. I am so not ready to let this boy go to school all day. He's such my little mommas boy.

Opening presents with very excited brothers by his side

 Colton helps get me moving in the right direction in cleaning the house. He likes to have things picked up and organized. He's constantly asking when we are going to clean this or that. He doesn't have to be pushed or prompted to put his stuff away. When he gets home he doesn't waste time in dumping his lunch box, giving me any paperwork and then putting his backpack up. He knows the rules and follows them-for the most part. He has been known to be a little rebellious now and then.

He finally got his very coveted treasure chest just like Josh's

 He has been working so hard the last 9 months on his speech therapy. He wants to be better and understood more easily. He is his worst critic. He beats himself up when he can't say words right or when words just simply will not come out the way they should. His desire to be good is there, his tongue just doesn't always cooperate with him.  I see his heartache and frustration  and it has honestly left me heartbroken and in tears for him. He has a hard time seeing the progress he's made. He only sees the roadblocks he is still facing. He has this drive to be perfect in everything and when he's not it drives him mad.

Pretty excited about his puzzles

 Colton is a very unique little man. Right now he loves Home Alone. We have all 4 of the Home Alone series. And specifically #3 is his very favorite. We have watched them over and over again, in fact we watched one of  them today. Also, I love how when he's excited over something he will jump up and down really fast. I love how he is such a big teaser. He loves to play jokes and tricks on people. I laugh at how he regularly puts on 2 different shoes and I allow it except to school. I find it funny when in the middle of the day, at random times, he comes to me asking for a bath. It'll be 2pm and he wants to have a bath. So, I give him one, only to have him walk out, wrapped in a towel 5-10 min later. I laugh at some of his catch phrases, right now when something is hot he says it's "freezing hot." I have come to expect that when I pick him up from school and ask what he did that day he will say nothing. Or if I do get an answer from him it's something sarcastic or about the snack they had. I could go on and on about his quirks cause he has plenty of them. But that's what makes him special. o

His awesome new chair. He chose this himself in Lincoln, NE on our way home from Utah

A fun new toy

 If you notice Josh has wrapping paper in his hand. We make everyone but the bday kid pick up the paper and trash. And then on their birthday we let that individual pick everything, breakfast, lunch, dinner, prayers, and what we do for the evening. It's their special day after all.

Getting ready to blow out candles

 So, I hope our little man had a great birthday. We had to celebrate his birthday 2 days early because we were too busy all week long. On his special day, he got to pick breakfast, he chose waffles. But then unfortunately he had a dentist appt. We like to tease him that his dang mouth costs us a lot. Between speech therapy and all the dental work it has added up. But, he really did get genetically screwed with his teeth. He has already had like 3 fillings, a crown put in, and like 4 more cavities to be fixed. And ironically he's our best brusher now!  After he had a dentist appt, he had speech therapy, and then I worked on his bday cake. While I did the cake, he watched a movie and fell asleep. Well, after I was done, I woke him up to see his cake and run to Sam's Club for a birthday treat for his preschool class. Well, he didn't want to get up nor did he want to see the cake. When he finally came to I told him to go look at his cake. Well, he wanted nothing to do with it, in fact he turned his head the other way and walked straight down the stairs to the car. Crazy me for thinking that he'd want to see it! So instead we ran to Sam's Club and got him some Angry Bird cupcakes.  Even after returning home, he still didn't give it much of a look. That is just another unique trait of Colton. Once everyone was home we opened up all his presents then it was time for dinner.  Lucky for me he chose pizza. Yay no cooking for me-just Little Ceaser's. Then we let Colton choose what we did after dinner. He chose the park. I was dreading that he'd say Penguin park but again, I lucked out and he said Macken Park. Then we came home, had cake and ice cream and went outside. Played for a little while then asked Colton what was next. We all wanted hot tub but not him, he wanted a movie. Unfortunately, it was getting late and he wanted Home Alone so he had to settle for something short and sweet. Overall, I think he had a pretty darn good birthday. And as I write this 2 days after the festivities, he even got treated special on his real bday too. But that's ok cause he's a pretty darn special kid. I really like him. We are so glad that he's in our family. He brings a lot of laughter and smiles to our family. We love you Mr Colton-bear!!!!

Josh is 7!!!!

Playing in the sand on his birthday

Getting ready for his special dinner. He chose something "healthy" according to him. He chose green beans, mac and cheese, apples, bananas and strawberries. He did a good job on the healthy choices. We added some hamburgers to the menu for the rest of us.

Very excited Josh to get a light saber

Wahoo, a TMNT lamp from grandpa and grandma

One of the top gifts he wanted was a treasure box.

Upon opening his treasure box he was shocked to find it full of more wrapped presents.

This was the cake that Josh chose the night before his birthday. Originally we had planned on doing a camouflage airplane but he changed at the last minute. It took me all day doing the little things for this cake but it was a fun one to make. All along the sides of the cake I added some skulls and crossbones.

I think I have a happy Josh on my hands.

 Oh, what can I say about Josh? He is a character! To sum him up, he is the spawn of his father. They are so much alike it's not funny! He is a very unique boy. He is extremely picky when it comes to food. He refuses to eat cut off corn but yet he will eat corn on the cob. I cannot get him to eat much fruit at all so when he chose fruit for dinner, I quickly agreed to that. I made the hash brown funeral potato's and her refused to tough those. He loves meats, nuts and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Side story, he is so picky that he is not getting a good variety of food so I came to him with 2 choices. Choice 1: eat a variety of food to be healthy and stop whining about it or choice 2: he could have pbj's for breakfast, lunch or dinner for a month solid oh and only milk or water to drink. (Ya, ya not a great solution in trying to create better healthy eating habits but I did it anyways.) Well, initially he of course chose pbj's but then decided he'd eat healthy and stop whining.

Josh has really been into listening to music lately on my ipod. So, he did get an ipod shuffle for his bday. He can put them on and do his chores-maybe that'll help motivate him. Before changing rooms around he could care less about a clean room, but now he is trying to keep it up. If we come down to his room at bedtime & it's messy, he'll tell us that he'll pick it up tomorrow.

He is a stubborn one that boy! He refuses to wear a jacket in the morning anymore. His rational is that it's only cold at night now. So apparently if the sun is up it couldn't possibly be cold, right! We have had a few battles lately on the jacket issue-mom says wear a jacket when the temperature says mid 30's and he says no. He must run hot cause he also doesn't like to wear clothes either. As soon as he gets home from school you can bet he'll strip down naked. Nor does he ever wear pajama's even in the dead of winter. He likes to be naked. So much so, that he gets in the hot tub in just underwear too! He likes to be naked!

Right now, I can't really say he's into anything super big time. But some of his interests are Pokemon cards, Lego's, the Lego mini figure men, books, collecting and hoarding his things, his little laptop. He says his favorite food is mac and cheese, mom would have said pb&j's. His favorite color is green. He wants to be a police officer when he grows up. If he had a million dollars he would buy his own hot tub. His favorite candy is Hershey's chocolate. His favorite book is Junie B Jones. And his favorite thing to do with his family is get in the hot tub. I see a theme there for him: hot tub=NAKED!!!!

Like I said our little Joshy is a very unique and funny boy! He comes in such a small package but he really has some power in that little body and mind! Can't even believe that he just turned 7!!!! He will soon be finished with 1st grade and onto 2nd grade! Sheesh! That's so surreal to me! It really has gone fast! But he love our little Joshy!

And this is the cake I made for my final cake. I think we are caked-out cause I had to throw some of it away before I began making Josh's cake. We just can't eat any more cake right now. The cake classes were fun but it'll be nice to take a break from cake and have Saturday's free again. 

Changes

Well, where do I start? We have had a lot of changes around here. First up, we decided to close my salon. We prayed about it and felt like the timing was right. We have been getting too busy with all the demands of life. March 15th was my last day. It is sad to see it come to a close. I loved doing it and visiting with people but my house and kids were getting neglected. I simply could not keep up with everything so the salon was something that we could eliminate to simplify our lives.

 

So, with the closing of the salon, that left us with one big room. We knew that it only made sense to make it into a bedroom. With only 3 bedrooms upstairs, we had 2 kids sharing per room. Which is fine but Audrey is getting older and needs to have her own room.  We had a silent vote (boys only) and asked where everyone wanted to sleep. Colton and Nate wanted downstairs and Josh wanted his own room. And of course Audrey got her own room. Well, the night before the room was ready Josh and Nate changed their minds on what they wanted. It now came to Nate getting his own room and Colton and Josh sharing downstairs. This is a small video of what my salon looked like before. Notice, I did not clean it and make it all perfect cause I wanted it to reflect the truth of what it really was on a daily basis.

 

BEFORE

 

AFTER

 

We really like how everything turned out. We think it's a pretty awesome room. We still want to add some more detail and personality to the room but this is where it stands at for now. The boys really do love their room. Admittedly, the first night they were scare to be down there, it was only after leaving lights on and them both sleeping together that they were ok. And since then, they have been completely ok. Danny did add the animal tracks that I think are a nice addition.

 

 

 So, I didn't have any before pictures of this room to post. It was a John Deere tractor room before.  But this is what Nate's room looks like now. We  let him pick out what he wanted to do to this room. We have some old barn wood frames that are going up by the shelf. Uncle Kyle agreed to draw him a bear picture and grandpa is going to draw an antelope picture. Which I think adds such a nice touch. And then I think I'll try my hand at some camouflage valance. Also, eventually on the ceiling will be stars, and a full moon and planets.

 We think this room turned out really good too.  He, also, was slightly scared the first night to be alone but Nate enjoys having his own room. And Audrey's room is in transition. I have not been able to get to it because I got a slight case of vertigo. So, it's still in process. I do know that we want to do a wall that is all sparkly, most likely silver and maybe the other walls in some stripes.

Some of the other changes to our life include Danny finally being done with school. Yay!! No more school! No more school means more nights with Danny around. That being said, he was been called to Young Mens. He is the 2nd counselor and scout master. Now every Wednesday he is gone with all night. But that is ok cause he is loving it. It's been a good change.

I have been taking a cake class. I have done Wilton course 1 and am finishing with course 2 on Saturday. I have been taking it with my friend Melissa and it has been a lot of fun. They have 4 course and want to continue the last 2 later in the year. I have learned a lot and has definitely  helped make my kids cakes much better.

Kids are doing good. They are growing fast. Of course Audrey just turned 3. Josh will be 7 next week. Colton is 5 in May and Nate is 9. We just registered Colton for kindergarten. I can't believe he will be going to kindergarten. We moved here what he was just 6 weeks old and now he's getting so big. We have been working with a speech therapist at home and he loves Pattie. Colton has come a long way with his speech. Josh is really doing good in school. He has went up 4 reading levels since January so overall this year he has really taken off with his reading. Nate loves his Sage class and is a very good conscientious citizen at school (at least he save his battles for us at home).  They are good kids they just really keep us busy!

Audrey turns 3

LOOK WHO JUST TURNED 3!!!!!

I cannot believe that my baby girl just turned 3 today! Where has the time gone? I think she looks so big and of course beautiful in the picture above this paragraph. And yes I put make-up on her just for fun one day, it's not something we do daily. And she is absolutely beautiful without makeup!  

 

This little girl is growing up so fast. She is a little chatterbox-never stops talking. She LOVES Dora and Diego. We watch a few episodes daily. When they ask any question she talks right back to them as if they can hear her. She is full of spunk.

What a brotherly act of doing the bunny ears.

Audrey is very much a girl that loves anything girly but isn't afraid to get outside and get dirty either. She loves anything pink, purple and sparkly. She loves princesses, baby dolls, her kitchen and especially her shopping cart and food.

She was so thrilled with her Tangled dolls. Also, note the hair. This was in the morning right before church. This is actually a tamed look for her in the morning. I love her curls but they are rather unruly to handle if you don't know what you are doing.

 Audrey is my little shopping buddy. She does rather well going shopping with me where ever we go. I enjoy taking her to JoAnn's or Hobby Lobby cause she gets excited about the pretty stuff too. I'll ask her an opinion on something and it's either beautiful or I don't like that. She knows what she likes and doesn't like. She is opinionated and stubborn!

I love that smile!

 Audrey is very affectionate. She likes to give all of us hugs. If she thinks you are asleep, she kisses your cheek to wake you up. She loves to sleep in the middle of mommy and daddy but that is something that we have slowly weaned her of. She does occasionally sneak back in at night but it's hard to get mad at her when she just wants you to cuddle with her.

Mommy loves her girl. I had to give her a birthday hug.

Colton just cannot help himself-he has to pick up and clean. He can not handle the mess so he picked up with out being asked, Nate soon followed his lead.

This is my first attempt at making a cake from a  designer cake pan.

Audrey loved, loved, loved her cake.

Nate loves his baby sister

 She had such a great birthday! We celebrated a day early because Danny had school on Monday night but she didn't know that. She chose Tangled for her table decorations. She loved all her gifts! Once she had opened all her gifts, she stopped what she was doing and stood up and looked at us and said "Thank you everybody!" It was just the sweetest thing ever. She is a very sweet conscientious little thing. At the beginning of the day we would say happy birthday and she'd say happy birthday to you too. She is a funny one.

And her real personality comes out.

 Audrey has been a lot of fun to have in the family. She has brought some pink and frilly into a house that is filled with  legos, trucks, balls and swords. We love her so much but I maintain that one girl is enough for us in this life. The crazy emotional switchbacks are just insane to deal with. But we love her a lot!  HAPPY BITHDAY BABY GIRL!!!!!

Heavy Heart

At Omaha zoo, the kids gather together.

Oh, what silly litte ones all dressed as pioneers at the visitors center in Omaha.

 

I have wanted to update my blog for awhile now but haven't been able to  take the time to do so. I think I am officially tired of looking at Halloween pictures when it's now Christmas.

I just needed to update it with some pictures of my cuties. I am so incredibly grateful that I have them all. That they are all safe with me in our home. So grateful that I get another day with them to be their mother. And yet at the same time so guilty because I do get another day with them, get to spend Christmas with them and still be happy together.

 

I have such a heavy heart right now because of the Connecticut elementary shooting. I have shed many, many tears as I know many of you have. Ever since I learned of this I have had the worst pit in my stomach. I can't get over the senseless act of violence that took place at such an Innocent location with helpless children and school staff. I can't even fathom the fear that was in their hearts that morning. I have no doubt that they have received exaltation and that they are happy and safe now. But the fear! The violence! I can't understand it nor will I ever. Colton woke up this morning crying cause he couldn't find Danny or I. Danny was hunting and I was on the couch. I was scared! But I was there to grab him, hug him and take him back to my bed and cuddle with him. Then I felt guilty that I got that moment to comfort them and those parents didn't get to do that for their child. And those poor kids had to be scared and can only imagine them desiring their parents more than they ever had.  I feel so much empathy for those parents that now have to bury a child. I know that pain of burying a child to never see them again on this earthly life.  I think of the children that went to school together with their sibling and had to leave school without them.

 

It hits me straight to the heart. I have a first grader! The age of this class! And let me just emphasize that it doesn't matter what age and grade these children were, it simply doesn't matter because it was senseless and pure evil. I can picture Nate's 3rd grade class, Josh's 1st grade class, even Colton's preschool; I can see each of their desks in my mind. I can pull up images of the children I have met in their classrooms, each of their teachers. The public school system isn't perfect but it didn't deserve this violent act. And through the years, we have had several teachers, and they have all been great and I know they would protect my children like those other teachers did. So, I think of how it could have been my kids, their teachers, their friends. And though it didn't happen to us, it happened to someone else. Someone else is grieving. Someone else is planning a funeral. Someone else is crying. Someone else is going to have a Christmas with out their child or loved one. Someone else may have to deal with seeing the presents under the tree or get a package from amazon for their lost one. Every aspect of their life has altered drastically and my heart hurts for them. And it makes me feel guilty that although I hurt today, my pain will lessen with each day but someone else is suffering beyond comprehension for a lifetime.

 

Last night in the hall, I came across Josh's kindergarten class picture and I just looked at their faces and counted 20 kids and just thought, they would've been wiped out. It's so heartbreaking what happened! I can't even wrap my mind around it. I know I need to tell them about it but I don't know what to say. I don't want to scare them senseless and make them live in fear. (Nate is scared senseless of tornado warnings let alone a shooting at school) So, how am I suppose to talk to them about this when it will just cause so much fear and anxiety over something that can't be prepared for. Cause that's how I'm feeling right now. At the theater last night, we went and saw Shrek the musical. And I was so filled with anxiety looking for the exits, Danny had mentally counted the children. We were both filled with fear. We aren't safe anywhere. I am struggling beyond anything with this latest shooting. I have avoided the news, the radio stations, yahoo, anything. I can't handle reading any of it. I can't read about details because it hurts too much.

 So, I felt by writing it might help me. This may be one big jumbled mess of a post but I was writing from my heart. So if it doesn't flow well or make sense, well it's just me rambling on with overwhelming feelings. 

And at the end of the day yesterday I was so grateful that my kids were alive and were able to walk off the bus together. I got the chance to give them a tight hug and tell them that I love them. I have tried to be more grateful for each moment I have with them. Even grateful to be cleaning up Colton and Audrey's throw up.  Because even stinky throw up means that they are alive! And I love all 4 of my little beings!

Halloween 2012

Nathan is the glow in the dark skeleton

Pirate Josh

Spiderman Colton

Little Red Riding Hood aka Audrey

Excited for a night of fun

Convict Dan

Prison Warden Jen

 

Beating up the bad prisoner.

 

 We had a great ward trunk or treat. We were one of the few that dressed up but we had a lot of fun. Hope you all have a fun Halloween!