September 3 is here again. And this year is a milestone year. This would have been her 8th birthday and she would have been baptized this month. It's hard for me to believe that it's been that long. To me it's a very special day. A day that I'll never forget. This is Lidia's day, her birth day. And unfortunately we'll never be able to buy her gifts and see her open them. But fortunately we are able to decorate and leave little memento's on her headstone back in June. I am lucky enough to have some super sensitive boys that yearn to get things for Lidia. In June, Nate kept asking to get her flowers but I knew that I couldn't let just one boy put something on her grave. I had to get something for everyone to lay down. So we did. In August when we came again we are happy to see that everything was still there but the flowers.
For now this is the only way I'll ever be able to have all my children together. I'm am beyond grateful in the knowledge that we can see her again one day. My testimony of eternal marriages and families is unwavering. I am so thankful to a loving Heavenly Father that gave us the ability to be together forever. I am also grateful to my Savior, for his sacrifice and love for us that we all may live again. I love my little family. They may drive me bonkers at times but because of the trials I have been through it helps me remember what treasures and gifts they are. I love each one of my children individually. I love my Nate, my Josh, my Colton, and my Audrey. I often tell each of them that they are my favorite Nate or fav. Josh, fav. Colton and fav Audrey. And after all that I've learned and continue to learn, this is just one, that Audrey has been a tender mercy in my life from my Heavenly Father. She hasn't nor will she ever replace Lidia but she has mended alot of ache in my heart. I will always love my angel baby Lidia.
